(Psalm 51: 15-17, NLT)
15 Unseal my lips, O Lord,
that my mouth may praise you.
16 You do not desire a sacrifice, or I would offer one.
You do not want a burnt offering.
17 The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.
You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.
Sin is never without damages. It divides, diminishes, and defaces the beauty of being in right relationship with God. It’s funny almost, how we always respond to things that are broken and damaged. We try to fix them by doing things. We drop a vase — we tack it back together with super glue. We get into a fender-bender — we replace the bumper. We hurt someone that we love — we attempt to make amends with words, deeds and gifts. We sin against God — we pray more, make promises to Him, do some good deeds. We try to make it all better by taking action, but it never does seem quite the same as it once was. We attempt damage control, quickly scrambling to “clean up” and hide all traces of wrongdoing, yet in all of our doing and fixing we are missing the point!
When sin leads to brokenness, which it always will, it is not up to us to go about “fixing” anything. There is nothing that we can physically do to mend the hurts that result from our transgressions. We can’t make it go away. We can’t make any reparations that will lead us into grace, because grace is not our responsibility. Our responsibility is to stop trying to sweep the broken pieces under the rug, and instead be humble enough to hold them up and say, “God, I did this. I’m truly sorry. And now, I need You to mend it and make it beautiful again.”
And then…He will.
For in your brokenness, true repentance is found. And in your repentance there is healing and restoration. What once was may never look quite the same again, but instead of it being pieced together by our own shame — a crude attempt to replicate God’s handiwork — it becomes something quite lovelier than we could ever imagine. Because God doesn’t use super glue. He takes our broken hearts and lives, and He pours His love into the cracks, filling every empty space with grace and healing. He repairs us with gold.
Prayer: Heavenly Father, help me to always have the courage and humility to bring to You the fragments of what my sin leaves behind in its aftermath. I know that when I come to You with a truly repentant heart, You will answer my cries and open my mouth to praise You again. Amen.